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5:26 pm
God gives his only son...
to earth...
becoz he love the people....
so we have christmas....
christmas is abt LOVE...
den....
WHERE IS THE LOVE?
where is mine?
2:11 am
last gathering for 4e5 in 2005...
rather happy n rather disappointed...
happy tat many pple came... n have a great time...
n thank you for saboing me... thanks!
n disappointed tat quite a number of pple nv come..
anyway... dun expect too much...
overall... i'm happy tat we did have a fun time...
alot of photo taking...
oh! this christmas i felt different... n now is christmas' eve's eve...
n wow! everything went so fast....
normally 2 weeks be4 christmas i will feel the excitment... coz got a lot of programme happen in church...
but this time not much programme, so not much festive mood...
so! i felt i still like 4e5 very much...
so much laughter...
k... MERRY CHRISTMAS!
11:29 pm
ok.. this yr christmas i will not be posting e "last christmas"...
but something special...
something in hokkien... =D
http://www.syfc.org.sg/christmas05/hokkien.htm
9:17 pm
ok... after few posts of unhappiness.... something different today... recently our class got a new toking topics... which is bbdc (bukit batok driving centre)... those who are taking the basic test are toking abt it... toking abt when going to learn driving together... toking abt the basic theory test... toking abt when e government going to change e rules to 21....
NVM! 1 month more....
TILL I LEARN DRIVING!!!
WAHAHAHAH!
9th january 2006!!! i be at bbdc waiting... =P
12:05 am
today was doing an application for PDA... using microsoft visual basic... i was lyk starring at e comp for 2 hrs.... n now i got headache liao... didn't eat much during dinner.... tats show i cant be a programmer... just 2 hrs infront of comp also headache....
a problem is good...
we learn to overcome it...
n grow to maturity...
but...
too much problem at a same time...
is stress....
which brings anger and sadness...
enough is enough .......
8:55 pm
its really a pain in the ass that friends have totally different view pts n way of life, its really no pt to argue abt how u take sleeping, play games, watch movies as ur own pastime, since we hold different view pts, lets go our own separate ways, n forget abt it......... its really wasting my time!!!
11:40 pm
christmas is coming, n i have no mood for any festival, not even christmas... every yr christmas to me was something beri special, so special tat i was always looking towards it... but this yr was really, no mood for it... feeling kind of wanting to be lonely, e feeling of all alone was kind of good... not even family....
i was thinking of how good is it to be all alone, n u can do everything u wan as u wish, all alone sitting at the sofa, starring blankly in the sky... nobody is going to disturb u... issn't it great?
dunno wat happen to me, just feel like being alone.... maybe too much things has happed during this yr... too many changes, tat i felt so weird... although i wan to write this post at e end of this yr when i summarise my whole yr... but i think tat i cant hold it anymore....
terrible yr for me.... things r not going smooth for me... damn it... i tot going to poly will be a new life for me... but it turns out e other way.... not my kind...
aiya... dunno wat to say lah... rite now just feel like going to pack all my stuff n go to somewhere far far away... where nobody knows me... away from my boring n useless course, away from all my "not steady" frenz, away from my "noisy" family.... to somewhere tat is more simpler....
hope tat e yr end trip will helps..........
i just need a break..... long long break.....
11:30 pm
these few days in skool are getting harder to get pass... e modules tat i am having r those boliao n useless module, n thinking back i dunno y i chose IT course... really a stupid of me to choose tat... especially e java, just 1 lesson i didn't go... i am totally lost...
now i got totally no mood to study or even do my project, i just wanna quit this course... n i think abt it... if i continue wif it... in e end... wat am i going to be? IT programmer? something which i dun wanna to be.... which i got totally no interest in it....
if my english pass, den things will be betta for me...
i dun ask for money, all i ask was something tat i enjoy doing....
facing the computer all day long was not i wan....
12:15 pm
HEAH WEI JIAN MATTHEW
9th janary 1988
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